tired of waiting

Opening Prayer: O Lord, I do not wait like a watchman waiting for the morning very often.  Usually I wait like a prisoner being held captive.  And I know that is not what either of us want.  Forgive me, O Lord, but at this point it is all I can muster on my own.  So teach me to wait.  Help me to wait.  Give me the strength and the power and the courage and the patience to wait, until you are finally ready to come and deliver me from my waiting—forever.  Come, Lord Jesus!

Scripture: Psalm 130:5-6

Journal: How and where are you tired of waiting?  What will you do?  What do you want to say to God?  What do you think he wants to say to you?

Reflection: Okay Lord, let’s be honest.  I am tired of waiting.  So, so tired.  I have waited and waited and waited, until I’m not sure I can wait anymore.  Yet I have to.  I have no other option.  So if you want me to wait some more, you are going to have to give me the ability to do so.  Otherwise, I will just grow bitter and frustrated, dark and depressed.  And I don’t want that any more than you do.  I want to be able to wait like a watchman waiting for the morning, I really do.  And for a time I was able to do that, but I am simply not able to anymore.  I don’t have it in me.  I need your help.  Have mercy on me, O Lord.  Meet me in the midst of this long, long season of waiting.  And if you are not yet going to give me any resolution, at least give me yourself. 

Prayer

Closing Prayer: I pray to God—my life a prayer—and wait for what he’ll say and do. My life’s on the line before God, my Lord, waiting and watching till morning, waiting and watching till morning. O Israel, wait and watch for God—with God’s arrival comes love, with God’s arrival comes generous redemption. (Psalm 130:5-8, The Message)