Scripture: Exodus 16:1-21
Journal: Where are you grumbling in your life these days? What is its source? What is at the core of it?
Reflection:
And Moses said, “When the Lord gives you in the evening meat to eat and
in the morning bread to the full, because the Lord has heard your grumbling
that you grumble against him—what are we? Your grumbling is not against us but
against the Lord.” (Exodus 16:8)
Hello, my name is Jim and I
am a grumbler. It is sad to admit, but it is true. I grumble
a lot. I murmur under my breath (and even out loud at times) and complain
in my heart pretty regularly about what is going on with the people and the
circumstances around me. It is not a pretty sight and is definitely not
something I am proud of. Yet, when I read this passage in Exodus 16 my
disgust with the incessant nature of my complaint and criticism was taken to a
whole different level. For this scripture reveals the fact that when I
grumble, ultimately my grumbling is not against those around me, but against
God.
What exactly is grumbling
anyway, and where does it come from? The definition of the word grumble
is to murmur or mutter in discontent; to complain sullenly.
The Hebrew word is luwn, which means to be obstinate. It
conveys the idea of an attitude of complaint that one dwells and persists
(or even abides) in. Grumbling, therefore, is not just an isolated
incident, it is a spirit and an attitude that cause a certain way of
being. It is one part pride and one part discontent, with a heavy dose of
selfishness sprinkled in. Grumbling occurs at the odd intersection of
arrogance and insecurity. It criticizes and tears down in an effort to
convince ourselves that if we were in charge things would be much different, much
better. At its core, grumbling involves a heart of distrust.
Grumbling is a subtle, and not so subtle, way of saying to God, "I don't
trust you, I trust me.” Therefore, it is
toxic to the soul. Grumbling dries up the life of the Spirit within us, producing
dark sadness, gloom, grumpiness, and discontent in our souls; the total
opposite of the way God created us to live. And unfortunately it is a
difficult addiction to break.
That is why we must turn to
God regularly in prayer (see Psalm 32), acknowledge the state of our hearts,
admit the ways we have fallen short of his ideal, and ask him to forgive us and
restore a right spirit within us. Only God can detox our souls from the
spirit of grumbling that has taken up residence deep within us. Only God
can uproot this spirit of complaint and criticism and discontent, and fill us
with the Spirit of joy and gladness and gratitude instead. Then we, like
King David, can pray, "Rejoice in the Lord and be glad, you righteous;
sing, all you who are upright in heart!" (Psalm 32:11) For the Lord
our God has been so very good to us.
Prayer
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