suffering, wednesday

Wednesday, October 29

Come to Stillness: Take a few minutes to allow your mind and heart to be still before God.

          

Opening Prayer: Father, I know my wounded and broken places oh so well.  At times they can consume me and keep me from being able to hear your voice.  Help me to see my pain as an invitation to know you more intimately rather than a reason to doubt the goodness of your heart.  Help me to know that through my pain you desire to accomplish something very good in me.  In the name of Jesus.  Amen.

Scripture Reading for the Day: Psalm 66:8-12  

Reading for Reflection:

 

     You let it happen—this riding over our heads—whoever or whatever it may have been.  You didn’t cause it, but you could have stopped it.  I mean, I know it doesn’t happen every day, but I have seen you spring into action and miraculously come to someone’s aid or defense; come to protect or deliver.  And yet, for some reason, in this case you didn’t.  You allowed it.  Does that mean you sat idly by and watched?  Or does it mean that—although the brokenness of this world was its cause—that you were big enough to bring beauty out of the tragedy?  You saw it coming, and let it stand, because of what you knew it would do within us.  You knew that the groaning it would produce would have an effect on us like nothing else could or would. 

     So where exactly were you when we were going through the fire; being consumed by the agonizing flames of grief or sadness or mourning or pain?  What were you doing while the mighty waters rushed over us and swept us away; as we struggled and fought to survive—to keep our heads above water?  Were you with us in some mysteriously hidden way that we were not able to completely comprehend at the time?  Were you in the midst of the fire with us; shielding us from the fury of the flames?  Were you in the middle of the raging currents beside us, holding and sustaining us, keeping us afloat?  After all, you know what the groaning is like.  In fact, you know it like no other.  Did it break your heart to have to watch the riding over us unfold—to know the depths of the pain we were going through—and not intervene?  How hard that must have been for you.

     When we are in the midst of the groan it is hellish.  It is hard to believe, or even consent to the fact, that something good might possibly result from the chaos and brokenness.  Much less to think that it could be some strange path to a place called abundance.  That is almost unimaginable.  Yet all of us, on the backside of the riding over, usually have to admit that something took place within us, or among us, which could have happened no other way.  We would never have chosen the path in a million years—not then, and most likely not again—but we can’t deny the beauty of the new place at which we eventually arrived.  How in the world did we get here?  Who would’ve imagined that the groans and cries and tears and struggle would have brought us to this place?  This place where our hearts have been both broken and expanded, where our souls have been both crushed and deepened beyond measure.  Who could’ve dreamt that the effect of the fire and of the water would have been to make us more like Jesus?

     The groaning of this world seems endless.  And it seems to come from every direction.  And it is so hard to watch the groaners groan and the mourners mourn and the strugglers struggle and not be able to do anything about it.  It is so tempting to try to come to the rescue, but rescue is not really possible, or even preferable, because something much deeper is going on.  In the words of Gerald May, “There is no way out, only through.”  Something deep and wonderful happens in the going through.  So we must resist the urge to provide an escape—if that were even possible—because the struggle, or the groaning, or the grief, or the pain is the very thing that is able to do a beautiful work within.  All there is for us to do is trust.  Trust that God really is in control.  Trust that God really is up to something, in spite of all appearances.  Trust that God really is big enough to sustain, to comfort, to deliver, to heal, and ultimately to transform.  Trust that through the fire and through the water lies a place of abundance.

Reflection and Listening: silent and written

Prayer: for the church, for others, for myself

                                 

Closing Prayer: To you.  I’m used to poking around the rubble of my crumbled dreams, but now I see that you’re the one smashing them to pieces.  You’re holding the sledgehammer in one hand and an invitation to the palace in the other. (A Heart Exposed by Steven James)