stay in the struggle

Opening Prayer: Give me the courage and the strength and the grace to wrestle with you, O Lord, whatever that may look like.  For it is only through the wrestling that the blessing arrives.

Scripture: Genesis 32:1-31

Journal: Where and how are you wrestling with God these days?  What is that struggle accomplishing in you?  Will you stay in the struggle long enough to receive the blessing it holds?

Reflection: “But Jacob replied, ‘I will not let you go unless you bless me.’” (Genesis 32:26)

You’ve got to admire Jacob’s tenacity.  While most of us would probably have been saying, “Let me go, this is exhausting, painful, and incredibly uncomfortable,” Jacob was saying, “I will not let you go until you bless me."  The truth is that most of us probably do not stay in the struggle long enough to get the blessing.  We tap out.  But Jacob was determined.  He knew this wrestling would eventually bring a blessing, so he stayed in it.  And although he left with a limp, he also left with a new name.  From that moment on, Jacob’s life would be forever changed.

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Closing Prayer: “Enable me to stay in the struggle until the blessing arrives.  I will allow myself to be vulnerable.  That very vulnerability is my limp, but it is also my blessing.  O Transforming One, you have wounded me, yet you have not disappointed me.  I am grateful for the blessing of all my new names.  Thank you for your presence in the beautiful struggle of daily life.” (Abide by Macrina Wiederkehr)

the depths of woe

Opening Prayer: Out of the depths I cry to you, O Lord!  O Lord, hear my voice!  Let your ears be attentive to my pleas for mercy! (Psalm 130:1-2)

Scripture: Psalm 130:1-8

Journal: When were you last in the depths of woe?  What impact did it have on your life?  How are knowing the depths of our own sin and the knowing the depths of God’s love tied together?  Do you have the courage to ask God to take you to the depths of woe, so that you can know the depths of his unfailing love?

Reflection: In the Scriptures, I normally think of an invitation into the depths of God as a positive and inviting thing.  But what about when he invites us—or ushers us—into the depths of woe?  What about when God leads us—or takes us—to a place of coming face to face with our own sinfulness, brokenness, and desperation?  What about when he invites us not just to take a look at his beauty, but to take a good long look at our own inner ugliness?  That’s a whole different story.  I guess that’s why most of us refuse to go there on our own, we have to be taken there.

Well, God has taken me there recently, and I have to say it is not a place I enjoy being.  To be taken to the depths of woe is to be taken to the depths of your own neediness, brokenness, and insecurity, which is painful, humiliating, and incredibly dark.  It involves wave after wave of sorrow, sadness, and shame, with absolutely nothing you can do about it, except sit in it, cry out for mercy, and wait for God to show up in it.

But you know what I found at the bottom of these depths of woe?  I found Jesus.  I guess that’s why the words of the ancient prayer (Psalm 139:8) remind us that even “if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.”  He was right there with me.  His goodness, his unfailing love, and his full redemption (Psalm 130:7-8) even reach to the bottom of the depths of woe, and beyond.  In fact, it is impossible to know the true depths of the unfailing love of God apart from a journey to the bottom of the depths of woe.  For these depths are meant not only to mark you deeply, but also to change you completely.  Jesus meets us there and makes us more into the people, and the lovers, he dreamt us to be.

So if you are currently in the depths, like me, don’t fight it but embrace it.  God is bigger than your sorrow and your sadness and your pain.  God is even bigger than your sin.  Trust him; he is doing a great work in you.  He wants to show you the depths of your sin, so that he can help you to better understand the enormity and extravagance of his unfailing love, as well as the beauty and power of his full redemption.

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Closing Prayer: “From the depths of woe I raise to Thee the voice of lamentation.  Lord, turn a gracious ear to me and hear my supplication.  If Thou iniquities dost mark, our secret sins and misdeeds dark, O who shall stand before Thee?

To wash away the crimson stain, grace, grace alone, availeth.  Our works, alas! are all in vain;
in much the best life faileth.  No man can glory in thy sight, all must alike confess thy might,
and live alone by mercy.” ~Martin Luther

advent is coming

 Advent begins on Sunday, December 3.  If you are looking for a good companion for the season for yourself, your family, your friends, your staff, your small group, or your church, here are two options.

Order My Steps

Watch and Wait